In one recurring dream, Stan North needs to fire his gun but the trigger won’t work. In another, he shoots, but the bullets come out in slow motion.
His blood pressure remains high, even with medication. He has trouble sleeping. He admits his wife finds him irritable at times, a hard man to live with.
Most of all, if a situation required him to fire his gun to save a life, the Rockford police officer told the Police Pension Board he’s not sure he could get the job done.
“I’d hesitate,” he said. “Seeing what I saw, the way this transpired with (Mark Anthony) Barmore, it was a sight I wish not to repeat.” Read more.